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Saturday, August 30, 2014

Goodbye, August


The Bible says that there's nothing new under the sun, which I find truer everyday. I say that because before I thought it was kinda weird, or at least I was the only one doing it, finding photos of random people who look like your characters and saving it or something. But not only did I see someone else give this advice, and Pinterest proved me wonderfully wrong; one of my friends was doing the exact same thing! Also, another friend of mine invited me to a private Pinterest board along with the same friend I mentioned earlier :)

I finished The Lost Princess last week!!! It was REALLY good! It had a mesmerizing plot, intriguing mystery, great character development, a believable romance, suspense, magic, royals, wizards...jsut about everything I could ask for in a novel :) The protagonist, Sinda, although she got on my nerves at times, was a well-rounded character who grew throughout the story - after discovering that she's not the real princess, she must find herself (and does). And her friend, Keirnan, was cool, and everyone else I liked/hated according to their role (hero or villain). The author is such a great writer - I copied down one and wanted to copy down more of her paragraphs (if I had remembered - I was so engrossed with the novel!) Overall, I really enjoy it. I think I may have written that I was gonna review it last week (or was that just in my diary?), which I did yesterday or the day before via Goodreads, so I'll copy that review and put it on the other blog during one of its weekly posts!

Momma did my hair Sunday!!! Instead of putting in the yarn braids, she put in some fake hair (lol) that she got from the beauty salon. It looked more like my real hair and had little pretty curls at the end when you boil them! I know, I know, I need to take more pictures, but I keep forgetting too! I promise I'll do it one of these days (but not today!!! Lol xD)

The MTV Awards also came on, as you probably know. After last year's giant controversy with Miley Cyrus's performance, I didn't watch this year. I looked at MTV Awards' history and it just seems like they're TRYING to start controversy sometimes! I mean, why else would there be so many controversial moments at that award show? Okay, maybe they're not purposely trying to start something, but they know it gets them in the publicity. But who am I to say what they want and don't want? And this year didn't have a lot of (if any) drama, so that's good.

I'm continuing my plant-strong diet! We're working our way towards eating less meat and possibly become ovo-lacto vegetarians! (I love that word ;) My mom likes to say a plant-strong diet so that we don't exclude meat completely and label ourselves. I really like saying ova-lacto vegetarian for some reason ;) lol, but I do get what she means. We still eat meat, but we're mainly trying to add in more vegetables and less fat from the meat. Although cheese has a surprisingly high amount of cheese (I didn't know it had any before!) so I have to lower that. But I love cheese, so I'll still eat some :D

Monday my brother AJ got a tooth pulled! I forgot to mention that, one of the days when we went to the dentist, they discovered that he had an extra tooth (something very rare and that I didn't know existed before!), and it was sharp and I think it was crowding his teeth since it wasn't supposed to be there, so he had it extracted. I should show a picture of it - that thing is POINTY!

This week was (almost) a doctor week, because Imani and Manny, my other siblings, had blood draws Tuesday to make sure everything was, you know, normal and all. I don't think they got their results back, at least not that I know of, but Momma said it usually takes a week or so for that...

Wednesday I had a followup appointment with our family doctor...You see, last month, when we had the appointment, I opened up to him about some of the personal struggles I have been through for the past years, and he wanted a followup to make sure that I wasn't suffering from depression or anything. I actually think I may have been, even though it was on the milder spectrum, but I guess I'll never really know...And I'm trying to move beyond the past. The important thing is that I'm better now and happier than I've been before. There's a quote in A Wrinkle In Time that goes something like, "I think you have to know darkness to appreciate the light", which, while it may not apply to everyone, does apply to a lot of people, including me.

Meemaw also came over that day! We started talking about some deep things like sociology, racism, sexism, then heritage...we go on tangents a LOT! But, just to clarify, I'm NOT making fun of talking about deep stuff; I hope it came across as funny. Because I really do like talking about deep things. I like brain-stimulationg conversations...I think I actually want to go into psychology in college, even though it probably won't be my major. But who knows? ;)

Ariana' Grande's album also came out that year! I didn't buy it because I didn't have the money for it at the time, but I listened to it for free on Youtube and then on Spotify. I love it; it does not disappoint. Ariana is a great singer. Some of the songs (a lot of them, actually) are R&B-ish, and I don't usually listen to slow songs during the day, but I do like them. My favorites are "Problem" (LOVE the saxophone!), "Break Free", and one that wasn't released before the album: One Last Time. It sounds familiar to me for some reason, the music does, but I don't know why...not saying that she stole it or anything, but like the thing about nothing new being under the same, I think that applied to her.

Thursday I tried a new recipe! It was a vegetarian pesto spinach cheese quesadilla! (What a mouthful!!! Lol). It was my first try, so I made a LOT of mistakes, but I was glad that I did! As my mouth said, and someone else/others have, mistakes prove that you're trying. And I was able to laugh at myself, which felt MUCH better than berating myself over making mistakes. And it didn't turn out TOO too bad, except that I burned severals...haha. But today I made them, they turned out better, and guess what? Only 1 burned! I'm getting closer ;)

Oh, and guess what happened Friday - I GOT MY LAPTOP BACK!!! (WHY DIDN'T I MAKE THAT THE TITLE OF THE BLOG POST???) Haha, but seriously, I was SO happy when I got it back - I'm typing on it now :) I didn't realize that I had written it on Twitter how much I had missed it a few times - I really did miss it! But you guys, without my laptop I couldn't access pages (Mac's version of word) as easily, where all of my STORIES are!!! I had to use my phone instead, and let me tell you, it was frustrating. I kept fat-fingeirng stuff - ugh. But I really am grateful to have both a Mac and iPhone, so even though I missed my Mac, I didn't feel deprived of anything. I'm so blessed :)

Speaking of stories, I FINISHED THE FIRST DRAFT OF WEREBEASTS THAT DAY!!! I don't even CARE that I rushed the ending or messed up continuity here and there or that it's not perfect, because NO first draft is! I hadn't finished that draft for about ONE year, but now I finally have!!! Gosh, I'm just so happy! Now, if I could just figure out how to work Lizard-Man's fifth draft...maybe I need a break from the story and should get on my Star Wars fanfictions instead, or maybe I should totally rewrite the Lizard-Man story. Who knows what'll happen? :)

I know, I know, I keep talking in caps, but I feel like it! Lately, I've felt really confident, which is a LOT better than my depressive state. But I haven't felt that bad for several days since a few months - I'm so proud of myself. Happiness is something you have to chose everyday, and I'm working towards it everyday, always. I don't know exactly why I said it, but I do hope that this inspires someone.

Demi says "Stay strong", and I was thinking of having my own little saying. Although "Never give up" basically means the same thing, I really like it. Because it basically applies to everything. I'm going to start saying that more, maybe even make it a bracelet :) Never give up! ;)

Saturday, August 23, 2014

School Starts


I went with my brother Manny and Imani to hang out with some friends. His friend (and my friend, though she's more of Manny's best friend) Kylie was heading off to the college Wednesday so we wanted to catch up with her and her siblings. 

First we ate at this resturaunt where I got this really big sandwich that I could barely finish it! I can't remember the restueraunt, and it might be local so I won't give away the name (if I knew it, of course!) but geez, it said it was a medium and it was BIG! I would've gotten a small had I known the size of it. I don't even want to see the large of it! LOL!!! xD

Then we watched Guardians of The Galaxy afternoon. It was pretty good! It was definitely different than the other superhero movies I’ve seen - more quirky and humorous, and it had a Star Wars-esque feel to it at times - but not in a bad way. Rocket Raccoon probably was my favorite character - probably because I didn’t know what to expect from him xD I actually really liked all of the main characters, and I wanted more backstory on them - not as much Starlord, but the others. But overall, it was really good! Marvel did a good job with this one.

After that, we weren't exactly sure what to do, and Kylie mentioned going to Barnes And Noble (which I also wanted to go to) so we went browsing but didn't buy anything (I barely had any money lol).

Our friends' parents mentioned that they were going to Michael's to pick them up and Kylie wanted to get something and I of course being the creative bug that I am happily went. They had to leave unfortunately but I had a good time and we said our goodbyes. And when my Mom came to pick us up, I bought some jewelry stuff (earrings and duct tape - ooh!)

Staples was our next stop. Mom got some supplies and we checked to see if the notebooks were still on sale (they were 25c each!) and this time they were 72/73c each, so we got a bunch! 

We also went to the library to pick some books up on hold, but I didn’t see mine! Bohoo! I was REALLY looking forward to reading the Revenge of The Sth novelization, but it got lost or something. Oh, well…I rented out WAY too many books (The False Princess, Wither, and The Scorpio Races) because I didn’t know which one I’d like to read. But I really liked what I read from The False Princess, so I started reading that. By the way, isn’t there a book called “The False Prince”? I was just wondering, cause this one’s title sounded familiar. Anyway...

For dinner, we got Sonic’s. I was so full from my big sandwich and snacking on my cheetos/candy in the theater that I didn’t eat till later. Then I attempted to record a blog, which I actually really liked doing! Hey, I might to that in addition to a blog, eh? Anyway, I had a lot of fun. I don't hang out with friends a lot, but I figured that it'd might be a nice thing to do on the weekends every now and then to stay in touch with people :)

Monday was the day I "officially" started school! Well, I at least did math, and English Tuesday, but they're kind of the main subjects in school so that works out :) it really wasn't that bad, the math...I mean, yeah, it IS math, and I got a headache from reviewing exponets and adding them and negative exponets...yeah don't get me started on that! xD

My mom had to take my brother to the hospital for a checkup the same day (I don't I've ever written/explained about why he goes to the hospital every now and then...I'll have to write about it next week! ;), so I didn't have her the entire day or most of it to help with work. But one thing I like about my homeschooling is that, ever since I started high school, I can do much of the work on my own and be self-directed and just ask questions whenever I need help :)

Switched At Birth this week was...interesting, to say the least. I can't believe they graduated - as someone said on Twitter, it feels like it was just yesterday that Bay took the blood test and found out that she wasn't biologically related to the Kennishes (sniffles). And I was glad that Daphne finally owed up to her mistakes, especially when it came to going to prison, but the end ***MAJOR SPOILERS*** BAY TAKES THE BLAME FOR HER!!! WHAT THE HECK, MAN??? No, Bay! Daphne should have stepped in. You should NOT take the blame for someone else, especially when they committed a criminal act! That almost makes it okay for Daphne to act out and not learn from her mistakes because her sister took the blame from her! Ugh, I just do not like the way they ended it.

And that reminds me why I'm thinking of maybe not watching it next year (*gasps at myself*) I know I said that this year, but...I just realized, after going on the IMDB message boards where others were saying that they also thought that this season and the past one lacked the quality of season 1, that I'm not really into it anymore. I kind of feel obligated to watch it, being a longtime viewer, and I think a part of me hopes that it'll get better.

But enough of that. Let's move to something more positive, shall we? Like how Taylor Swift just released the music video for her new single, "Shake It Out" for her new album, 1989, on Youtube Tuesday!!! (Boy, was that a mouthful!) Haha, anyway...it's definitely different than her older songs. It's more poppy, like Red had been, and she says that this is her first album labeled as pop and not country. But I like how catchy the song is, and how Taylor's basically saying that she doesn't give a care about what other people think of her. I think that's why she got mad when people called her out for dating several guys - but now she's not letting it get to her. Good for you, Taylor. No one has to agree with her lifestyle, of course, but they don't have to criticize her the way they did (by calling her names and such). And it's always great to have songs that encourage people to ignore others opinions and just be themselves :) I'm looking forward to her new album and commend her for trying a new style, even if I'm not into it. It's always good to experiment! :)

In other news, I've been reading "The False Princess", which is really good! It's about a girl, Nalia, who, as the title implies, discovers that she's not really the princess, but instead a stand-in to protect the real one - her real name is Sinda, and she's really a peasant. But it's not as simple as that - Sinda discovers that she possesses magic hidden deep within her. A plot against the kingdom soon unfolds as well (which I won't give away for spoilers), and it's really interesting. It's definitely one of my favorite books that I've read this year. I'm totally righting a review for it sometime after I finish it :)

My mom got me a new phone Thursday!!! :D It's white and has a pretty case (one that I had picked out) and I think it's the iPhone 5!!! It's got a better camera, runs better, and I guess since, it's an updated version, just overall better in quality than my older phone :) But there's one problem - I can't move my music over to my new phone! :( The new phone said something about my Apple ID being on another device and that I can't download it, and I think my mom/Manny said that I needed to update my phone stuff to my computer...

...But that's a problem because I don't have my laptop! I had to take it in because, as I posted last week, the darn M key wouldn't work! So I'll be without it for like three weeks or so, so no music and no laptop for me for a LONG time...Actually, that's why it took me so long to post this blog post (and why I forgot to post yesterday for my reviewing blog - sorry about that, by the way :/) But thankfully I have access to other computers, and really, I should be thankful that I have my own laptop - and a Macbook Air at that ;) And I hope my actions reflect that, because I really am grateful for both my phone and laptop :)

Meemaw came over Friday! We played some card games like Old Maid and Match (I really need to get a better pokerface because it's hard not to smile during the game!) and she and my mom talked and we chatted and stuff. And I finally gave her a (belated) birthday gift that I had meant to give her on her birthday - remember that T-shirt that I made at the library a few months or so ago (or did I ever post about that?) Well, my mom said that IF I didn't wear it all the time or was in love with it, I could give it to her. And I put it away for months or so and didn't think about it, so I guess that showed that I didn't want it as much (though I do think it's cute - I don't know if I posted a picture of it up or not, and I probably didn't, but I want something in the middle of it - like a logo or something). Anyway, I'm glad she enjoyed it. Giving gifts is just as great, if not better, than receiving them, especially when the person who you gave it to loves it (and I think she did!) Actually, seeing that look light up in their face when they get the perfect gift is a gift to myself :)

I feel like my writing's FINALLY GETTING BETTER!!! WHOHOO!!! I have been reading a really great book, and I have been reading some great advice on developing characters which ultimately develops the story, but I think it has more to do than that - I honestly believe believe that me changing my perspective on life has reflected that. I know I haven't delved too deeply into what I've been struggling with for the past three or four years, but it totally warped my perception on life. I kept feeling like there were times when I'd rally myself up and told myself that I was a writer and was going to succeed, but then there were other times when I just thought, "I can't do this; I can't write as well as others; I'll never make it to become published". I am totally rewiring my brain NOT to think that way anymore. Actually, I know we all do at some point and time, but, now, whenever I do, I'm going to inspire myself with a quote, look at my Stay Strong bracelet, pray, and/or keep telling myself "I can do this". In fact, I'm going to do it now: I AM a writer. I AM good at what I do. I AM going to finish the story that I'm meant to finish, and I WILL become published if that's truly what I desire.

As always, this post turned out WAY longer than I had meant for it to! I copied a lot of stuff down from my new (and first) diary that I try to make myself write in everyday - I'm pretty sure that I didn't mention that before, so that's ANOTHER thing to write about! Gah, I've got much stuff to write about! Stories, articles, blogs, diaries...there's just so much to write! But I guess that's what makes me a writer, right? I write all the time, everyday, every night...Laughing out loud, just kidding, but I DO write a little everyday. That's the only way to improve, right? Bye!!! :D


Saturday, August 16, 2014

Love The Life You Live


I thought that the title of this blog post would be really meaningful after what I'm going to talk about (and, if you see the picture and have read the news recently, youll know what I mean).

But before we get to that, I always like to start from the beginning of my week, and this is going to be a bit of a serious post, and Id rather start it off on a happier note. So lets talk about Switched At Birth this week!

It was definitely better this week! And thats mainly because Daphne finally got in trouble for all the mess she did. But geez, even then - I hate how she ALWAYS tries to defend her actions! She barely pushed Bay (she knocked her to the GROUND!), its not a big deal about her doing crack because it was one time (really?), and then she tries to pin the blame on Regina by revealing her mother pulling a gun on her! I mean I know why she said it, but Daphne is just trying to get out of trouble. Just - stop acting like youre perfect, okay? Because no one is (and before you say anything, I know I'm talking to a fictional character)

The most interesting part of this episode (and the past few ones) was the Daphne drama, of course. At the clinic, she goes to get some medicine or something for the doctor (cant remember his name) to help a patient, but then she sees these drugs (cant remember their name, either) and takes them! But then she washes them down the drainand the doctor finds out and lets Daphne go. Really, though, he handled the situation REALLY well. I mean, she STOLE pills and then WASHED them down the drain! What if someone needed them?

And then Wes finds out that Daphne was involved with Nacho punk in the vandalismas much as Wes annoys me, he was totally justified for wanting to punish Daphne for her illegal actions! Of course, Regina defended her own daughter, but I mean, I think Daphne might need to go to jail. You cant just get off the hook for that kind of stuff. Or she at least needs to go to rehab.

Which leads me to the part where Daphne runs off and her family finds her, and she apologizes for everything and cries and they all hug. It isa  really heartfelt scene, especially when Daphne admits that SHE feels guilty for not getting to know Angelo until he died. 

I, however, have a problem if Daphne doesnlearn from this. She said she was sorry with the thing with blackmailing Chip Coto last season, but now she does this! I mean, I just hope shes sincerely sorry. She seemed like she was last time but then Angelo died and, you knowbut everyone needs to be forgiven. Rehabilitated  yes, but I dont want anyone hating her forever because of something she did. As unlikable as she can get, I really dont believe that Daphne is just this horrible person.

Bays storyline wasnt as interesting, but I did like how she stood up to the people at prom when they said that boys had to wear tuxes and girls had to wear dresses. I donpersonally cross-dress or anything, but I seriously have a problem with you telling someone that they cant dress the way they want unless they dress inappropriately. I think thats why I like Bay. I wouldnt have done what she had done in her protesting, but when she had the prom outside at the end, I probably would have done that. It doesnt matter if youre straight, gay, lesbian, bi, transgendered, etc. you do NOT get to judge people like that. Its discrimination.

Well, that was pretty much it of Switched. The season finale is next week, and I'wondering if theyre getting a forth season or not? I'm kinda having mixed feelings on that. Season 1 in my opinion was the best season and its gone downhill since that, but the actors are really good and still make it enjoyable enough. And I feel like a dedicated fan, so yeah, Ill probably watch it - even if its just the first episode.

Now that that is out of the way, I have some other news to talk about, something very serious and heartbreaking but something that also has changed me for the better.

On August 11, the same day that I was watching Switched At Birth, I logged into Facebook and discovered that Robin Williams had died. As I looked into it further to make sure that it wasn’t a hoax, I saw that it was likely a suicide attempt. Williams had been suffering from severe depression for a long time, and then, monday, he took his life. 

I dont know how to describe my feelings. I was so devastated. As my friends on Facebook were posting about it, I did too, but I could barely type the words because I felt like crying. 

Suicide is absolutely the worst way to die. You didnt die because you had some physical illness or because someone even killed you or because of old age - you died because you took your own life. I can barely imagine anyone doing that. Its such a terrible thought and is the worst way to die. 

But I KNOW what he was feeling. I KNOW what it feels like to be so helpless, to feel like your life is just so horrible, to feel miserable, to feel like youre in such unbearable pain that you just want it all to end. I have felt this way before, and I actually thought about killing myself several times, as disturbing as that is. I actually came close to doing it a few months ago, but I was too afraid of death.

It wasnt just that, though, that stopped me. There was some part of me that knew that this wasnt the way to go - I know there had to have been. Even though my first thought was “no one will care if I die” I KNEW that wasn’t true at all. I knew my family would be hurt, and I now I can't imagine what my older brother would think because he had lost his friend to suicide a few years ago, and I just KNEW that there was something pulling me back. Deep down, I wanted to live. I wanted to love myself again

Robin Williams death has taught me more about myself. I always try to turn what seems like the saddest situation into something meaningful, and I did that day. I decided that I wasn’t going to end my own life (thankfully I havent thought of it recently, but I dont ever want to even think about doing it again). I am going to use my own pain to get myself help, as I am doing now, and I am going to keep moving forward and not look back. 

By helping myself, I know that I can show others that there is a way out of darkness and that you can be happy again. I sincerely want to, and I believe a part of me, believes that my Facebook status and Twitter posts about depression and suicide has helped someone. You never know how your words can affect people, and I hope mine has affected people for the better.

Rest in peace, Robin Williams. You made me laugh so much as a kid, and I hope that someone makes you laugh in heaven. 


I feel a little weird sharing all of this personal stuff on my public blog, but in the light of everything that happened with Robin Williams' (and Phillip Seymour's possible suicide) it felt like a good time to share. And I'm working on accepting my feelings and being honest with people without feeling guilty for my feelings. As Demi Lovato said in her book, our feelings are apart of us and we should accept that. 

Gosh, just thinking about all the stuff Demi went through and how she made it out - she's such an inspiring person. I know she's probably heard this a million times, but if I ever met her I would tell her how much of an inspiration she is to me and how, when I was reality struggling, I thought of her and how much wonderful advice her book has taught me. Stay strong, Demi❤️

My personal life hasn't had anything too interesting so far, as far as external things. I kinda started school this week...well, not completely. My mom told me what I was gonna do this year, but I'm still waiting on some of my books and my math came later that Monday, so I haven't done it yet. Plus, we've got some dental/doctor appointments and stuff that happened this week as well as next week and pretty much all of August, so we're gonna be busy!

Plus, did I meh toon that I'm a SENIOR this year? College, jobs, all that boring future stuff :p But I'm going to enjoy this school year and my future. I'm determined to make this school year worthwhile and better than my past teen years.

In literature news, I've been reading Peter Pan (did I post that last week? I don't remember :p) It's OK. I wasn't really a fan of the Disney movie, either, so I don't really think I'm into the story. Peter Pan is...I don't know. I know he's in Neverland so he's never grown up and matured, but he's just seems bratty to me. I do love the message about keeping a lively, childlike imagination even when you're older. 

I went to the orthodontist Wednesday with my brother Brad! They did some X-rays and then they talked about my overbite (ugh :p lol). Mine's not too bad (yes!) as far as medical reasons (I don't care as much about the cosmetics) but it could be a problem in the future. I also have four wisdom teeth that are coming in sideways and could casts problems, so I'm definitely getting those pulled out (I'm gonna have to go into surgery and get sedated! :O) As far as the braces, we'll still deciding whether or not we really need them, since it isn't a HUGE issue now but could pose as potential problems on the future. Guess we'll see how it all works out!

Afterwards, I went to a little restaruant across the street for lunch (it's local so I'm not saying it's name ;) The food was pretty good! The fries were delicious, and the pesto sandwich (I LOVE PESTO!!!) was really good. The peppers were a little too ripe for my taste, because they were bitter, but otherwise it was really good! And not that this matters, but there was a bottle of ketchup on the table that read FANCY TOMATO KETCHUP and then I said it's so fancy like the Iggy Azeals song ;) lol I'm so stupid😆

Later on that day, Meemaw came over, and we played Freeze, and my moactually came in, too! She usually comes up with some excuse not to play games with us, like how she has to cook or whatever xD haha

I hope I can get my writing mojo back! Its hard for me to stay focused on the work. I think I dont like editing: there, I said it. I already know that I dont like proofreading, but I am starting to find editing to be heinous as well. I mean, I think I like changing around words and using synonyms and all, but my works are so LONG and I just dont feel like rewriting them :P I know I have to get over that.

In any case, Ive found that switching my works every month or so has helped. I was gonna edit Lizard-Man this week, but I think after Hyper-monkey in nanowrimo I got so tired of superheroes or had writers block and I need to watch more superhero stuff before I get more ideas, anyway, so I went to Werebeast. But I also get stuck on this ONE part after the beginning of the storythe end, or everything leading up to the end, which of course is too important to leave out! Like, I'm 2/3 way through the story, but that darn 1/3 is bugging me. Ive been stuck on that part for 3 years it feels like! I mean I had another idea for it, but then I changed it because it didnt really work out for what I was wanting in the story. So I guess it hasnt been three years, so maybe like 2 or 1?

Wow, I'm rambling againbut this is my blog, and I can talk about whatever I want, yeah? xD Lol, anywayI started doing some stuff for that Alice In Wonderland remake I mentioned months ago. I published a shortened version of it on Figment and some of my other writing websites, and I didnt plan on making it into a full-blown story, but I really love the idea! I think I can relate to Alice well because she kind of sees the world (actually, not kinda lol) as a dark place, something that I felt a lot when I was depressed. And she just wants escapism, which is also something I feel. But Ive taken that trait of mine to an extreme, because Alice is very blunt and rude to everyone around her. But Ive read and really do agree that exaggerating a person’s personality/emotions could help make a good character, or something to that sort.

I'm also doing this new thing in writing that, whenever, I read some paragraph that I like, I copy it down. This works especially well for battle scenes, because I dont like writing/watching most of them, so it helps me get a feel for it. It also helps with describing emotions, a description of someone, etc. 

As soon as I get that Revenge of The Sith novelization, I'm going to do the same. And Ill probably do it with my junior ROTS novelization, as well as the other Star Wars novelization. I think it’ll really help me get a feel for the characters, settings, etc. I know I said I wanted to focus on my original stories more, but darn it, I love Star Wars, especially Revenge, so freaking much that I just HAVE to write a fanfic for it, even if it never gets published. And I'm already so in love with the Revenge novelization that I'm going to DEFINITELY copy down some of the paragraphs from it to help me describe the characters well. 

I watched Freaky Friday on a Friday :) haha. I went on a Lindsay Lohan run (I already saw Life Sized and Confessions of A Teenage Drama Queen years ago and I recently watched Mean Girls and The Parent Trap). It was really good! I loved the whole idea of a mother and doing switching bodies so that they literally can take a step inside of each others shoes. And the actors were really good! 

I think that's been it for this week. I know I had a LOT to talk about - I was just full of words, huh? Lol. Anyway...I'm going to be leaving sometime today to come to the opening of a friend of my dad's shoe store (cool, right? lol). You know, my mom mentioned that I could maybe ask about helping around there for free, kind of like volunteering, or even maybe get an internship (how cool would that be?) And I'm wondering if I could do the same at the library, because, well, even though I think I want to go to college, I don't want to owe all of that $$$ to them, so maybe I'll just get my first two years at community college and earn my associates degree, yeah? But anyway, I may not even get an internship, but I suppose if I helped out at the store I could add that on my resume ;) And Disney's gonna show Aladdin on Saturday and Sunday, in honor of Robin Williams, and I do so want to watch :) Bye!

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Last Week of Freedom!


Just kidding...but seriously, school starts back next week (so soon, right?) I want to be optimistic, but I'm really not looking forward to starting school again. And then I'll probably go to college...I don't know, I kinda feel like I wish I could just skip this school year and go to college now or whatever. But I am going to try and enjoy this year :)

I'm glad Switched At Birth was good this week. Thankfully, Daphne didn't ruin it. I'll admit that I'm losing more interest in it again, but I did like this week's episode. That was mostly because Daphne got called out for her BS! (First Sharee mentioned it, and then Bay...oh, the irony.) Even Regina, who was being too lenient with Daphne in my opinion, called her out! But Daphne's still a brat! The way she talked to Regina at the end, claiming that the woman who RAISED her wasn't her mother but the dad who left her at 3 is her father...ugh! First she yelled at Regina when Bay brought Angelo back, and now she's accusing Regina of KILLING her husband??? If I was Daphne, I'd get in a lot of trouble for saying that...smh...

In other news, I watched Mean Girls this week on Netflix! I wouldn't usually watch a high school clique drama, but the reviews for it were good, it's stood out since 2004, and my parents enjoyed it. And I enjoyed it, too! Even though it did seem stereotypical how everyone was divided into cliques so tightly, I think it did a good job painting a picture of how girls can be so mean to each other just because they're jealous or whatever they're feeling, and how they can really hurt other's feelings (because those girls got really mean!) And the message at the end about girls supporting each other rather than being at each other's necks was nice. Oh, and the film was fu-nee! It had me laughing out loud sometimes!

Since I was on a Lindsay Lohan run, I also watched The Parent Trap and enjoyed it as well. Probably not as much as Mean Girls, but it was pretty good. And Lindsay is a really good actress! I mean, she played two different people and I believed her! It's no wonder she's been in so many films. It makes e hate what happened to her, though :/ I think she's just going through a rough time and hopefully she'll come out of it and make it out of it a better person :)

Anyway, enough of movies - let's talk about what's been happening in "real life"! Haha, um...I'm thinking about becoming vegetarian! I have thought about it on and off, but now our family's starting to change our diet and we've got some meatless meals and we're eating more plants than meat. I can't tell a huge difference in our diet, expect for the fact that, if I get full, it feels better if I ate a meatless meal as opposed to a meat-filled one. I'm not sure if that makes any sense, but, you know...I don't know...

So I went to the dentist again Friday to get my cavity filled and to get some sealants. I've had like 2 cavity in the past, but they were baby teeth, so they were pulled. This was my first time getting a filing...and sealants.

My mouth felt really WEIRD afterwards :P They numbed the right side since that's where the cavity was (not to mention where all my teeth problems seem to surface :/) and the sealants felt weird when I bit down because it's like having another layer on my teeth. I couldn't really smile (it was lopsided!) because the other side of my mouth was numb😆haha

But guess what? While the dentist was doing my teeth, she noticed ANOTHER cavity! This one was in the back of my mouth and on the right side again! She said something about it being close to the guns so they'd have to use a laser or something. I'm not sure when that will happen...

I'm going to the orthodontist Wednesday because I have a bit of an overbite (I thought I did when I smiled!) Mom said we'd go and see whether or not if it's a big problem, and what we'll do. Who knows? Maybe I'll get braces. I've never  had them before :)

I finished my goal of reading 12 books this summer!!! I think I got ahead of myself, because it only took about two and a quarter of a month or so. Let's see if I can remember them all in order (I think this is right?): 

1. Uglies, Scott Westerfeld 
2. City of Bones, Cassandra Clare 
3. Patience, Princess Catherine, Caroline Meyer
4. Spells, Aprilynne Pike
5. Nzingha, Patricia McKissack 
6. The Fault In Our Stars, John Green
7. Mary, Bloody Mary, Caroline Meyer
8. A Wrinkle In Time, Madeline L'Angle
9. Linger, Maggie Stiefvater
10. Champion, Marie Lu
11. Quicksilver, Stephanie Spinner
12. The Fairytale Detectives, Michael Buckley 

Even though I've been kinda deflated in my writing, I always remember one of the most important writing tips: Any writing is better than none. So I'm finishing up my unfinished draft of Werebeasts! :) I feel like I'm spewing a bunch of mess sometimes, but at least I'm writing something! And hopefully I'll get ideas out of my draft. That's why the first is called a rough draft, right? ;)

That's pretty much it! Like I said, I'll be starting school next week, but I'll still post once a week on here ;) And I need to get my computer checked out, because the m key isn't working! I have to copy an m every time I want to write it. It's frustrating, and it stopped working like, out of nowhere :/ Anyway, I hope to get that fixed sooner rather than later...bye!!!

Saturday, August 2, 2014

Awesome August


I can't believe it's August already! Wow, the year goes by fast. School semester will probably be starting soon (I'm going to be a senior :O), and all that good stuff...but let's not get too ahead of ourselves. I tend to think ahead of time but I really want to start enjoying 

OMG I JUST REMEMBERED THAT I COULD READ SOME OF THOSE STAR WARS EU BOOKS OM IBOOKS AND I DID SATURDAY AND I FOUND MATTHEW'S NOVELIZATION OF REVENGE OF THE SITH AND READ THE PREVIEW AND I LOVE IT BECAUSE IT'S JUST SO FLIPPING PERFECT SO FAR!!!

Okay, fangirl moment over now. But in all seriousness, I'm so excited that I FINALLY got to read what looks like a great book and that it's at the tip of my fingertips :) And it's at one of the libraries (okay, I'll stop talking soon since I know not everyone is obsessed with Star Wars like I am).

I know I keep obsessing over ROTS, and I feel like I'm the only one who loves it so much, but I just can't help it. Its my favorite Star Wars move by far - not even Empire Strikes Back has reached it peek (though it is my second favorite film!) It's SUCH an epic story, full of so many deep, psychological thoughts, thought-provoking themes...I love it so much. Even if it's dampened down, my obsession for it will likely never go away. I feel like I can relate to it, too, and can use it to help me become a better person - on what not to do. I feel like I have a personal connection with it, with some of the characters (especially Anakin, though not to his extent, of course), and that's why I love it so much. I can't wait to buy the book! Now, if I could just get my hands on some extra money..

Okay, NOW I'm done. Anyway...

Switched At Birth is getting into soap opera territory again...It makes NO sense that Daphne would KISS the guy who INSULTED her mother! I mean, WHAT THE HECK??? And then she damaged the property her mom was working on with Wes and laughs about blackmailing a Senator?

I knew that the show was deviating from family territory and getting more soap opera-esque after season 1, but I'm just seeing how far it's going. Season 2 at least had the storyline with Carlton and the deaf culture, and even though this show still does, it feels more focused on drama that feels unrealistic (i.e. Daphne's ridiculous acting out after Angelo's death, Bay cheating on Tank after repeatedly insisting that she hated being cheated on). It's still entertaining, and I liked the storyline with Bay' and the aneurysm, but if it keeps this up, I'm not looking forward to newer episodes.

Should I give up on it? I don't like leaving shows, especially if they're still entertaining. And I feel like I "should" keep watching - it feels weird just to stop. But the characters are acting so unrealistic sometimes. I liked the one with Angelo's death (not the death, of course!) because it was a heartfelt storyline, but now it's back to relationships, and Daphne acting like a total brat. I don't know; I'll probably still watch it, but I'm not as engaged anymore. But better to have drama on television than in real life, right? I thought it might help because I can make way too much drama in my real life :P This is much better. 



I had my first doctor's check up appointment after like forever Tuesday. My brother also had one, and we have a family doctor, so I waited for him at times and vice versa. I did some checkups with the nurse and then the doctor came in. I actually spent more time talking to him about my health than the actual checkup. I felt really comfortable talking to him, which I thought was nice. To be honest, I can't remember my past doctors - I don't think I've ever had one we went to before - but I guess because of something with ObamaCare (which I know very little about) we have the insurance now so we're getting all these checkups now.

My grandma came over Wednesday, and she brought my sister Imani an early birthday cake (actually a cookie cake :) since she wouldn’t be there on her birthday (which was Thursday). And it was delicious! Yum! :) She also got her a $50 dollar iTunes gift card (WOW!).

Thursday was my sister Imani's birthday!!! She turned 19. We didn't do as much that day, but more on the other day. I gave her a $10 iTunes gift card. And Friday, my dad took her out to get some sushi, since they're the sushi lovers in the house.

This was kinda a doctor week for me, because I went to the dentist Friday. I love getting my teeth cleaned - it feels so nice. But you know what sucks? Even though I am consistently brushing and more recent flossing, I got abut her cavity. Yep, another one. I've had three, I think :/ anyway...I'm gonna get something like a filling (I can't remember what it's called) next week. 

So yeah, that was my week in a nutshell (what does that expression even mean? I mean, things in a nutshell mean they're short? I don't know why I'm even saying this. Lol) We were going to go to a thingy that was like a tour of the film set for some television shows in my town (yay!!! :D) but it's mainly outside and it rained today. We might go tomorrow, but the weather forecast said that it could possibly rain the next few days. Well, we'll see how that will go, right?